Mephistos

Baby News

By Ray on May 15th, 2009

Somehow it seems appropriate that I am sitting here in a bar having a drink as I begin the writing of this blog, considering that a long bunch of drinking is exactly how this whole thing got started. For those that have paid attention, you know that there was a baby on the way. In fact, if you happened to catch for the day or two that it was up, you may have seen that the due date was less that four and half months away.

Unfortunately that all came to a screeching halt this week when Nikki called me indicating that something was wrong in tears. I will keep the details light, but her water broke and despite efforts, there was nothing that could be done and the baby was lost. For those that are curious the little fellow was a boy and I know everyone found that we were not going to find out to be a point consternation.

For those friends, especially those at work and at home, that have known already the support and such has not been un-noticed. I will say I am sorry if I seem like a rude aloof person about it all. I just do not deal with such things very well, especially openly like that. I can sometimes, but generally not.

To say the least I am very sad about the whole thing. I had waiting until after a three-month mark before I told anyone. The thought there was to kind of make sure of things. I was really starting to get ramped up about being majorly excited about the idea, despite still working through where things were going to land with Nikki and I.

Somehow I almost feel like some of those questionable things from youth and especially those less questionable things of more recent years have kind of come back to roost so to speak. It seems like hopes and reams are constantly being built up of late, especially the last twelve months or so, only to come crashing back down to reality in a harsh quick way.

And so now, for all my friends and the occasional non-friend following on Facebook, MySpace and elsewhere on the net, you know, as a Paul would say, “the rest of the story.”