To Be Heard
I have so much to do and yet so much to say both here and at the other blogs. When trying to get things ready for both a wedding, a huge medieval event (maybe two), all the while spending time with the wife to be (on a surprise birthday trip, kudos for her and special moments for me) and keeping up with work can make one a bit crazy. It has ended up being that the blogs have suffered most and the armor the 2nd most. Anyway, here is one that I have had hanging on the wall in front of the computer for a long time while I debated about doing it or not. I will post and then explain it at the end, then you can decide if the act is commendable or deserving of the death penalty.
- I just want to be heard.
- It’s so hard sometimes and I just want to be listened to
- Not bashed because I make a statement or “whine”
- I don’t wanna be made fun of because
- I can’t sit back hold in my feelings like everything is just fine.
- No, Not with me.
- I just wanna leave and be out of this family
- But I can’t let one person get to me
- It seems that she knows exactly what not to say but says it anyway
- I wish she would just think before she speaks, only thing she thinks about hows her spouse and baby.
- So I’m going to separate myself.
Long story made as short as possible, the above was written on a piece of folded paper that I found in a suitcase I purchased from Good Will several months ago to use in the storage and transportation of armor. I found the single piece of notebook paper along with a bra and some female hygiene stuff. I kept thinking it was a good thing I was single, otherwise given the contents I may have a hard bit of explaining to do. I was at first appalled that Good Will did not clean things out more thoroughly, but as I thought more and more about it I was intrigued by the anonymous missive.
As I read it several times small parts of it made me think of different things and different people who I know of that it could possibly be. With a certain bit of thought and imagination, skipping the very neat seemingly young ladies hand writing, a few thoughts could belong to me on occasion. The confusion comes from the wanting to leave and be done with the family and yet she speaks of another female that is consumed with baby and spouse, clearly indicating the writer is not the focal female of the family.
My reasoning for posting this, well, first it is EXTREMELY unlikely the original writer will ever search or otherwise stumble across this blog posting and find reason to be offended. Beyond that, the first two lines keep dragging me back to this choice. She (again, I am assuming a she, but given the other items and the handwriting, I think it makes sense) clearly wants to be both heard and listened too. Perhaps, in some twist of fate, I was meant to find this anonymous note and give her voice volume.
Okay, now I have posted the contents and said my peace in regards to it. Thoughts? Should I have been so bold or should I have left it alone? Secret thought of my own so that everyone one knows, I am looking forward to the next misplaced note I find in a purchase a second-hand store!
** – No picture this eve, but if I recall in the AM, I will scan a snippet of the original handwritten folded and slightly crumpled note.
